I'm only as crazy as you make me!!!

Came to Longview for our 3 month check-ups. Ken is okay. Me,,,,,,, I'm okay. Sort of......... Xrays show serve cervical degeneration, cat scan shows the whole
neck is sort of messed up. If I understood the doc. right, I lost a vertebra. any way thats whats causing my headaches. They could not do a cat scan of my brain with contrast because blood work showed it could throw me into kidney failure. That lead to the 24 hour saving the urine thing which shows my kidneys are functioning some but not enough. So now waiting to see a kidney specialist. How exciting can it get. Not...... oh they did a cat scan without dye but have know idea what that shows as the main concern seems to be my kidneys.

Well thats whats happening in our neck of the woods.

Another year. So far 2 deaths. Leah and Ruth. Sis is in bad health, Larry also.
Feb., 27, 1979 my father died.
March 07,2006 my mom died.
Jan. 19, our wedding anniversary, my niece died,2008
Feb., 13, 2008 mother-in-law died.
Don't want anymore deaths anytime soon. Too depressing.

Well, today I reached the young age of 66. It was a good day. Bless my dear husbands heart, he makes this day as happy for me as anyone can for another.
He got me a rock tumbler. I love to collect pretty rocks so now I can polish them and make them really pretty. I look at the ground looking for a rock that is different all the time.

Hey, I took that 17 year old test and aced it! I know my history. Of course
I always wanted to be a history teacher and make history come alive for my class. Not a dead boring subject.

We will head for Lufkin tomorrow and later go to Colorado River, TT, because they have so many deer at that Thousand Trail Preserve. It is also a nice place to stay.

it is foggy here in Conroe. Got out yesterday for the first time since being here. Chest is better. Not great, but better. Hate getting a cold. Such is life.

Shelby wakes me up to go out in the morning if pop isn't up. She takes her front paw and gently moves my arm and nudges me. Guess she is smart. Well, really she is a good dog.

Hey, hey! Son sent me a couple of pictures of him. They are better than any I have taken.
These are goood pictures!

I gonna go eat Mr. Gatis pizza now.

Love ya'll!

Yesterday was a great day for me. What could be better than both your children, grandchildren
and in-laws(husbands side of the family) meeting for a Christmas party! Lots of laughter
and lots of food! All good! Then the bingo game. We always have fun with that. Old fashion
bingo with maybe a little twist.
Seeing my children talking and laughing makes my heart sing.
Wish I was not allergic to perfume like smells. When I got I got COPD I got a full dose of allergies. Thats life.
Anyway, after the ccp pop-pop and I went over to his sister #1 house.Sister #2 also
went over there so we stayed talking and laughing for another couple hours. Very good
visit.


Its odd but pop-pops family now is like my family use to be and now my family is like
pop-pops family was! Very odd in many ways. Just goes to show nothing stays the same.

Dreams are sometimes crazy! I mean CRAZY! I keep dreaming we have just moved into this new home. Then all my family comes to stay with us! I mean all! My dad and mom, my grandparents,
(they are all dead. Also my older bro has passed away) My brothers and there families,then
my sister and hers plus some friends from the past and present. Now here is the crazy part.
I keep finding extra rooms for them to sleep in! Bedrooms with bathrooms! How many bedrooms is that? I am not even going to start counting. Funny part also is I didn't know this house had these extra rooms. What I thought was a closet turns out to be a bedroom and bath! It was not a motel or hotel but a house. A house for crying out loud.A house!
Now last night in this strange larger than life house there was this one room I could barely
talk in and my stuttering was really bad, but I would go into this other room and I started
preaching to my sister! I ask her if she was ready to die, to see the light, the wondrous,
shining light. I had seen it. Nothing to be afraid of. Just let go, the light would come if she was ready. Then I would go back into the other room and again be barely able to speak. Then back in to the other, my voice strong and preach again to my sister about the light. There were others there but I did not know them. So why were they in my house?
Guess crazy really fits.

A lot has happened since last I posted. Been to Conroe for 2 weeks visited my sister who
is doing so much better. Got to see Son. He is looking good. We played pegs and jokers
with him. We enjoyed it, hope he did.
Went home for awhile. went to Lake-of-the-Pines. Still enjoy going there. Really was nice to see the water level back to normal
Back to Towakanee for 2 weeks. Playing 42,3's and 10's. those were new games using the peg
and jokers board. not the 3's though. It is a board game. Also played "toss football"?
Now we are back at Daughters in her front yard.
Went to the ball game last night. The band is sooooo much better! Unbelievable! The flags
are/were fantastic! Granddaughter stood out as one of the best. Because she is! It was cold.
We left after the 3rd quarter. Roos lost the game but half time was great.

Got to see and hear the Roo band and flags! Flags are a lot better because
my granddaughter is now marching with them!
The band has a new band director and the band sounds and looks so much better! Hey, they are even learning to march! wow! Love it!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, we will be band grandparents again

Sis tried to call me while the band was playing. I called her back later.
She is doing so much better. Hard to believe. She is sounding so good.

Guess we will be leaving daughters front yard tomorrow. I always enjoy my time here.

Guess thats it for now. I want to see son soon. Love my family.

Sis, has called me several days in a row now. What a blessing cell phones
are! She is in rehab to get her body muscles built back up and her off the feeding tube etc. I look forward to the day she is out of the hospitals!
She looks forward to it the most. She has now been in hospitals since March of 2007. This is the 6th month now.


We are parked in daughters front yard. Taking Rana-Roo to flag practice.
School will be starting soon.

Hubby has been rebuilding a drill press that was rusted out do to flooding.
He enjoys doing things like that. Have not got his oxygen level test results
back yet.

Brother sold his trailer park. Don't think he is moving because his wife
gets confused in new places. Lost and scared. But then aren't we all in some ways? I sometimes hate leaving the house. I can hide there and no one can find me or hurt me. (I think in my head but they can)So I guess that makes me stupid, or crazy. Or both! Maybe that is why my granddaughter named me crazy_nana!

Sis can't talk with the tracheae tube in her throat but
tonight when I told her I love her she mouthed I love you.
She is in such a bad condition. So helpless. She knows me, knows us all but what is happening to her
is frightening her. Since her wreak, about a year
before mama died, Sis has not been in good health.
Now she has a dialysis machine going, breathing tube,
feeding tube, all types of tubes in her veins. She rested and was quiet as I held her hand. But as we
were leaving she held up one finger. We all were guessing what she wanted, then I remembered the game, one word, A? I? I, I what? She reached for her
breathing tube. I told her I knew what she was saying but it wasn't time. Cal told her she is getting better. I think she is,but how many more blood transfusion and all can she have? How much more can she take? I have no idea. May God watch over her and be with her.

last night I posted about how bad and frightened Sis looked. How she hated the ventilator and tried to take it out. Almost 5 weeks hooked to life support. Her eyes open and scared. Staring at the ceiling,gripping our hands very tightly, not wanting to let go. Last night I did not sleep very well. I kept seeing her face. I had never seen her look anything like that before. Her or anyone else.
She knew me and a tears came to her eyes when she saw me.

Today she awoke in a happier state of mind. This afternoon the ventilator was removed and a tract tube put in. she will and is breathing better.
Hopefully I will be able to see her tomorrow. Hopefully she will continue to improve.

Sis looks frighten and unsure. I think she wants
to be let go. She hates the ventolator and having to be fed through a tube. Days have turned into weeks. To many weeks. The doctors are going to put in a tract tube and take her off the ventorlator if all her stats are okay to it. Poor Sis. So much going on I don't understand. She knew me. I could tell and she was trying to mentally say something.
She is so weak.
Brother-in-law now says he did not say daughter put in the computer for test. What the hey. Gloves and gowns are suppose to be worn. everyone had on gloves but I was the only one with the gown. I don't think she will make it.

I just talked to my brother-in-law. My sis, his wife has been in the hospital almost 5 months. Sisters
youngest daughter (B N law said) has been writing test on the nurses computers when know one
is watching! She did not finish the 8th grade or get a ged. Maybe this is why Sis got the pain medication
that makes her sees things and want to pull out the tubes etc. The doctors know she can not have this medication so they would not prescribe would they?  What is with this crazy daughter? She reads her mothers chart and tell her dad what they mean?




On a good note, had youngest Granddaughter this week. It is always a joy to be with her. She is going
to be somebody, but truthfully she already is somebody.  You go girl!

Not much happening. Daughter and family got flooded out of their house for over a week. Lost a lot of
stuff, but our dear government is not helping.
We were at a park and we had to move because of high water. 3 years of drought and now we have had
plenty liquid sunshine. Things could be worse.
My sister is in ICU. Don't know if she will pull through this time. We didn't always get along but she is my
sister. We have a lot of history together.
Years come and go so fast. Kids are grown. Grandkids almost grown.
We stay on the road a lot, meeting new people, seeing new places. Some old places too.
Don't  see son very much. He does not see much of his family. I worry about him. His choice.
Get to see daughter a lot more.  Guess she needs us more.
Such is life.
 

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